Hello. It’s been a minute.
for-give // stop feeling angry or resentful toward (someone) for an offense, flaw, or mistake.
With senior year coming to a close, there’s been a lot of change happening in my life. With college, friends, school and work, it seems like it doesn’t end. Outside of the physical changes, I’ve been thinking a lot and have been changing myself on top of it all.
Throughout the last three months or so, I’ve started to forgive more (and it hasn’t been easy). Forgiving, to me, isn’t forgetting how you felt when people have wronged you, but not holding it against them in an attempt to move forward. Unforgiving blocks us from ever moving forward.
So since January I’ve been able to rekindle two relationships in my life. I feel that it has allowed our relationships to strengthen and be more easy-flowing. Things aren’t the same, but as someone who loves people relentlessly, I’d rather have someone in my life by forgiving them rather than not having them around at all.
Recently, I had a conversation with a friend of mine. The conversation hasn’t weighed on me today, but inspired this blog.
We’ve had a long friendship and were able to break down things we haven’t really talked about. Rather, we broke down things we didn’t really want to talk about. The conversation consisted of laughter, tears, apologies and, get this, moving forward.
So last night I was thinking about those I’ve wronged. I know I haven’t been right in every situation and I know I’ve hurt people as well. Even people I’ve forgotten about and that is the worst part of it all. As much as I want to work on forgiving people, I want people to forgive me as well. I’ve settled with the understanding that being forgiven isn’t in my control at all. I can only say that if there’s ever been a time where I made you feel belittled, worthless or unloved, I apologize. I promise you, my intent is never to harm.
After all the thinking that has consumed me, I just haven’t stopped thinking today either (shocker)! The forgiveness that I have for others doesn’t compare to the forgiveness I’m offered by the Creator. That’s the coolest part. Whatever forgiveness I’m capable of doing is outmatched by the forgiveness God has for us. It makes my heart explode with joy knowing that I’m forgiven of wronging others, myself, and most importantly – God.
Psalm 103:8-12 says:
“The Lord is compassionate and gracious, slow to anger, abounding in love.
He will not always accuse, nor will he harbor his anger forever;
he does not treat us as our sins deserve or repay us according to our iniquities.
For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is his love for those who fear him;
as far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us.”
Not only does this passage describe the love and forgiveness that God has for us, but how we should live as well. It fascinates me that my sins are forgiven from the east to the west. This separates us from our sins because the east and west can never cross. Verse eight perfectly describes how we should mirror God’s characteristics in our own lives to our own people.
Apart from how God expresses his love and forgiveness, Colossians 3:13 highlights how we should live as well: “Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you.”
I like how Paul highlights that we shouldn’t forgive some grievances, but whatever wrongs that people do towards us should be forgiven.
This is what we are called as followers to do: love and forgive. To not let our sufferings keep us from love and forgiveness and to model his forgiveness if we are to follow God. And that’s what I want to do and what I strive to do and how I want to live.
So I guess this blog really had no cool ending or moral point outside of me just sharing how impressed I am with God and how I want to display him wholeheartedly.
That is all. Thank you, as always, for reading my nothingness.
Reckless Love // Cory Asbury